>>137374Update again, I feel slightly more lucid than I was in the past 8 days. I believe that watching vtubers is acting as a trigger for me to goon. I felt kind of normal but then I pulled up a vtuber clip and I began fantasizing about my fetishes again. Allthough vtubers aren't directly related to my fetishes, I may have developed a pavlovian response where I begin to get horny while watching vtubers. I believe that this is because after going home I would watch vtuber clips and vtuber streams, and when I finished with those, I would masturbate to pornography. These two things used to be seperate but the habit I created may have intertwined them.
I got another erection right after watching a vtuber clip. I have been using my penis so much that every erection hurts initially.