>>152841to clarify, I meant the idea of selfishness as a concept; to me it feels natural to only care about yourself, but I can't help but routinely remind myself that i'm "being selfish" and "self centered" if I feel unhappy about someone else's life. I'm really lost. There's a piece of me that genuinely feels I should just ropemaxx, as gay and generic as that sounds, because these ideas and others have been engrained in me since childhood.
really, I have nowhere else and nobody else to tell these things to. Hope someone can get it.