No.263536
>>263529It was 2009 for me but being perceptive made me soak up the prosperity and feel grateful for it and then I started becoming neurotic wondering how society has it so good and how it can be sustained logically
I wonder if it's neurotic or if it's perceptive to have developed those concerns though, I think the reality is that non-cattle behaviours are attacked by the system and the cattle and that I'm not actually a neurotic jew for seeing how bad it all is
Even at the highest levels of society you need to be a retard and do humiliation rituals which is gay since I want more money but it's also nice that almost everything on the material plane is pathetic and you can opt out of the shame system
No.263539
I say this
No.263541
>>263539unfortunate timing :(
No.263577
>>263544That's pretty interesting way to derive related concerns, as a kid I just had a view that all of the prosperity could exist in a zero sum system and that we needed to ask questions about wherever it comes from and how to advert a collapse and I was correct to think that prosperity is rare and can be extinguished indefinitely
For the humiliation rituals I think realizing it's all bullshit and that people are cattle makes you more powerful because once the genie is out of the bottle you can't go back to being a normie and being smooth with all of the retarded shit even if people try really hard like looksmaxxer types do, another powerful thing is that the epstein files show how the elites are just manchildren and how a huge percentage of the rich and famous are blackmailed to death and deal with abject misery like random people on the street can, you can eventually pick yourself back up through the logical lens and find your way even if being in a late stage world order is a mess for social mobility
I had a friend who was half japanese and when we were 13 he got zapped by NWO and became insecure about sex and then became obsessed with looksmaxxing and picking up girls and he caused a lot of misery for himself, it's total slave brainwashing everywhere and you can never really stop finding false societal narratives that could be causing you misery
No.263589
>>263579Yeah I think getting redpilled is hype at the start but then there's an avalanche of apathy and if you look around at the artificial internet you can see how they want anyone redpilled to drown in apathy and go in incorrect directions
The only real issue remaining to me is that we're in the decline phase of the post ww2 order and the time frames on these things are long and I feel entitled to everything that has been taken away since I was a kid but part of that is just raging at the jews because I'm a glutton and egotistical
No.263598
>>263531This video is talking about it with some charts and funny stuff
I like soaking up this kind of content but I'd be starting from scratch in the humiliation ritual system because my dad pissed the wealth away and I doubt he has anything helpful for networking
Sounds irresponsible but they lived in such an easy time period that pissing it away was fine until the 2010s came
No.263721
Im usually angry and hate everyone and everything, the older i get the more detached from life i get so i stop feeling things
No.263726
>>263722This means your happiness has been beaten down like a dog or a woman. You have aspirations for beauty but the world has sucked it out of you thoroughly and with black lipstick on. I think you should try indulging in these more often and creating that which you find beautiful. Even if it's objectively garbage, soul is rarely made with the express intent to impress others. An old black lady, the finest source of wisdom on the planet, once told me that I should never let someone or something steal my joy, and this hit me because it turns out loosh isn't complete bullshit, people will often attempt to siphon your joy and turn it into theirs, often not out of personal animosity or anything serious or deep but just to feel good or smart or dominant for a few moments. They will literally ruin your entire day just for a bit of dopamine. The systems surrounding us are much less personal but the principle is the same where they take and suppress your happiness and soulful things in general for the sake of extracting capital from you. You are a mine to these people, and your wallet is the ore vein. I think happiness therefore can come from absolute refusal to participate in the exploitative cycle; happiness should be something constructed by you, through your efforts, or extracted by projecting positivity. By refusing to entertain others, be it intentionally through attention seeking behavior or by letting them have an effect on you, and at the same time refusing to pass along that demand to be entertained, or mean-spirited jabbing onto others, you can master yourself and ascend. Methinks.
No.263727
so much written, am I browsing bant or reading a book
No.263731
>>263727retards believe that stretching out their point makes it seem more valuable
not a single thought this person has needs more than 20 words to explain
No.263733
>>263726Ummmm im pretty much immune to mental vampirism i think cuz my conversations with normies usually end up with me giving them one word replies so they fuck off pretty fast desu, and if they somehow dont fuck off and do upset me in one way or another i just dissociate by playing vidyas or reading (i read about 150 pages daily although its not because im getting mentally raped by normies every day) or doing whatever else.
>I think you should try indulging in these more often and creating that which you find beautifulI already do the indulging part, since as i said its pretty much my only source of so-called happiness, but not much creating i guess although i kinda started making my own rpg-maker game (it didnt go very far yet thoughie). Anyway i dont really care about being happy much, what im trying to chase is some different kind of emotion…not really sure what to call it, some kind of lucidity kinda feeling when you expirience something and it transpires you above normal world, or makes you expirience it in a really clear and sharp way. For example there was this part in Thomas Mann's Magic mountain where the main character meets a redhead russian woman amidst the autumn forest as sunlight shines on her hair making it look as if it was shining or something and i really could almost see it in real life. Or something. So basically those kind of thigns are worth living for (for me).
No.263761
>>263757ravens and wolves are actually friends irl