some retarded family drama happened again today so i finally lost my inhibition, confessed i've pretty much always thought of killing myself because i don't see a way out of my shithole house, insulted my schizo brother for saying he was a communist, said i was racist, and that hitler should've won when he asked me among other things if i ever disappear from steam / the bant sphere for a prolonged period of time it's probably because i got murked by him in some cowardly way because i feel like i could kick his ass in a fight
>>419053 i could probably defend myself in my room but if i'm asleep for example i'm cooked. and the reason my inhibitions were lower is that i don't really value my life that much right now, all i do lately is eat junk food, i look disgusting and hairier than ever, and i stopped working on the "projects" i started for the most part. so yeah
