some retarded family drama happened again today so i finally lost my inhibition, confessed i've pretty much always thought of killing myself because i don't see a way out of my shithole house, insulted my schizo brother for saying he was a communist, said i was racist, and that hitler should've won when he asked me among other things if i ever disappear from steam / the bant sphere for a prolonged period of time it's probably because i got murked by him in some cowardly way because i feel like i could kick his ass in a fight
>>419053 i could probably defend myself in my room but if i'm asleep for example i'm cooked. and the reason my inhibitions were lower is that i don't really value my life that much right now, all i do lately is eat junk food, i look disgusting and hairier than ever, and i stopped working on the "projects" i started for the most part. so yeah
>>419113 lolita community in west is all fatties and some very very old sisy men, its supposed to be elegant dainty and cute but you can go to lolita communities and some old bald man wearing some 200 dollar dress is like on the top posts ever
im sure it was mostly fat rich europeans wering the expensive victorian dresses but now id mch rather sexy chink pussy wear it and if you ever see a fatty or a tranny or a moid wear it you bully them
>>419131 japanese women see super passoid nokos now think they are gross the same way msot white women lookat hons when they arent playing their nice neurotypical foid lying games so we just need to import them and not let get them westernized and these transvestites like you will be gone in a decade
Theres nothing good about your dumb Hitler guy. Also you shouldnt insult your down syndrome bro. He probably doesnt know shit about communism (kikemmenism amirite geeeg)
>>419154 it doesn't matter who is right really, there's a reason I've said directly that I never want to talk to him many times, we just do not get along whatsoever. I've pretty much foresaw the inevitable conclusion of my existence as him snapping and eliminating me ever since I witnessed his first schizo behaviors (along with my mom not treating him like a threat until it's too late for him to even be reasoned with) it pretty much flared up a resentment in my head towards christians because every schizo comes to believe they have a connection to God to explain their delusions, which is a little less intense now. but my disdain for anyone who identifies as a commie is never going to go away because they are legitimately, historically pure evil
The success of NSDAP was primarily due to Adolf's Hitler's immense physical/spiritual energy from 20ish years of unbroken celibacy/Semen Retention/NoLust since end of his service in ww1 till he had sex with Eva Braun in 1941 during peak of Operation Barbarossa when the Wehrmacht neared Moscow
A lot of indicators that Hitler practiced celibacy ("semen retention" in its more modern blatant sounding name) throughout his rise to power
E.g. his avoidance of any sexual talks and general expression of disdain regarding casual expression of sexuality, rejection of advances women had toward him
Also the aura he had, regardless of his status/power, there was something esoterically otherworldly to it, the way women threw themselves at him
Many other dictators who had the same if not even greater power historically, even ones that were better looking than him, didn't have such aura that drew in general interest/fanaticism from others and also especially romantic/sexual interest from women
>>419193 This is because Hitler was autistic >unironically loved his dogs better than people >hated women and thought sex was disgusting >insisted on retarded military maneuvers over the people he hired specifically to make military maneuvers >masterfully crafted every little intricacy of an ultimately retarded, self-defeating ideology >his reply to the Christmas truce was not relief to not be being shot at, but rather "Deutschland has fallen... muh German honor..." You absolutely cannot tell me Adolf Hitler was not a sperg. >>419049(OP) As far as this goes, sorry you have such a fucked up home situation. You've talked about it before and it never seemed super serious but I think it's probably deeper than what you're letting on. Even then, day after day fights have a way of grating on you. I think the best way forward is to get a well-paying job and leave your home situation. I'd also encourage you to consider the race/Hitler shit, if you even unironically believe it, I get the impression it was kind of a forced confession, "I'm gonna say what you want me to say so you shut up" kind of thing. Even so, I don't really care about your political alignment at the end of the day, I'm not trying to evangelize to you and it's your decision, but just consider that they're contradictory, baseless, or both (meaning anybody peddling them in the modern day is 99% either psyopped or the psyopper) and on a structural level, will only bring you misery (can't be fun living in a world surrounded by le jeets and le niggers if you hate them; then, when it's only whites, that just feels like the baseline) and trouble (better be real careful what you say at work, or in general).
>>419198 >I think the best way forward is to get a well-paying job and leave your home situation. Do I even need to explain why I can't get a well-paying job? I guess so. I have no experience other than some entry level shit, I can't drive, and all that means I can't move out. Maybe I can go to college as a last resort but I don't know how to do that and it feels a lot less resourceful and independent than owning an apartment, even if I'd be forced to wageslave to keep one. Perhaps going to college feels largely out of control because it's conditional and I could get shipped back to the same nightmare (assuming that I'd even get to have a dorm as refuge instead of being taken to and from back home) >I'd also encourage you to consider the race/Hitler shit, if you even unironically believe it, I get the impression it was kind of a forced confession Like every other libshit / commie whatever the hell he treated me like a Nazi for saying that I'm racist, that the world was going to shit because everything is going to become India etc. so I owned it. One reason I didn't say things like that before is because I assumed that one day, people like him would change seeing world events, but if France didn't convince him then there is absolutely no reason to give the benefit of the doubt. >better be real careful what you say at work, or in general Thankfully I'm good at it. I was previously shit at controlling myself so I unloaded my gripes online; now I know that it's only safe if you're anonymous or have vetted everybody who will see you saying it and stuff like that. Being good at it doesn't help when you're trapped in a house full of yelling and noise and disorder for a quarter of a century though.
At the end of the day I'm a retard without the divine spark. I lack the ambition to accomplish much more than playing vidya in peace so I've moved from fearing my own demise to accepting the possibility that I will indeed perish like the low class roach I am
>>419226 ik you are younger than me, and dont be like me and be paralyzed in fear of trying to get something better over the fact that what could be might be worse, i fucked myself over for almost a decade because of that
>>419226 >college college is a meme. there's free courses you can do online for certifications there are also free irl schools you can go to if you don't have the discipline to do online shit. literally look up "free [whatever you want to do] course online" or "free (or low cost) [ditto] training near me" and I'm positive you'll find at least something. Worst case scenario you waste a few months on a cert nobody cares about and learn a new skill. best case it leads into a well-paying job. most likely case is that you get railroaded into a 1-5 yr contract with one of their partners. which, yeah, it sucks being legally bound to work someplace, but it's something.
if you're into trades btw save yourself some time looking for schools or courses or whatever and just look up your local... >THUNDERCLAP union.
Most unions offer some kind of educational apprenticeship, usually for free. Turns out dem evil scary socialists want to see people succeed in the workforce. I will say, this generally applies to bigger regional or nationwide unions, but I know for a fact the IBEW for example will sponsor your entire education to become an electrician, in full, and that shit pays well. That's my backup plan rn actually.
As a last resort, humiliating as it sounds, Job Corps might be good for you. I had a friend who went and she said it was *okay*. Fair warning, it tends to attract the wrong sort, Job Corps is where a lot of people go to out of prison in order to get an education, but it generally depends on your location. I grew up in, and she remains in, a pretty bad area, so there were some bad people in there. Your situation might be different. At the very least, it's free and they require you to live in their little dorms, so it'd get you out of your housing situation.
>treated me like a Nazi for saying that I'm racist, that the world was going to shit because everything is going to become India etc. politics horseshit below I don't want to make this a political thread bcs there's obviously more important shit to talk about, I consider you a friend and I want to help you out of your immediate situation, however I can behind a keyboard, anyways. All I ask is that you give what I say an honest shake and consider it from a panoramic point of view, detach your emotions, that kind of thing. If you don't agree, that's okay, but don't bother typing out a rebuttal, this is the last I'm gonna litigate this in this particular thread, for the reasons mentioned above.
It's obviously not right that your brother treats you that way. I think family is sacrosanct, and I think regardless of even fundamental disagreements, it's the job of somebody to treat their family right and have their best in mind. Otherwise, what makes family different from, like, friends or coworkers, aside from you live with them? That's just how I see it, I get a lot of people have real bad family situations, but mine isn't perfect either, and we manage.
On the other hand, yeah, most people don't like that you will literally say you're racist. If you're thinking of calling that groupthink, I'd ask you to consider why you're racist. If there's something inherently inferior about x or y or z race, you need to prove that, and you can't use anecdotes and stories and expect anybody to believe you, because at that point it's your word against not just theirs, but the entire scientific establishment's. We've studied this shit and haven't found one objective, measurable, inferiority or superiority in any given race, with the cause being that they are a member of that race. If I told you "Humans breathe helium, what the (((scientists))) tell us is oxygen all around us is actually helium, and the shit we fill balloons with is oxygen. And I know this because I just know this." I'd sound like a schizo, no? Even if I had an anecdote, for example, I saw someone fill a balloon up with oxygen once, that's still my word against millions of peoples' whose job it is to study this crap. If your primary concern isn't race itself, but migration, I agree, mass migration ain't good. I think especially when it comes to European countries, which have a more defined culture than someplace like America, large amounts of migration threaten to dilute a beautiful culture and way of living. This much is true. But, I know you're probably gonna read this as a cliche, but the only way to really stop migration is to stop the drivers of it. That means military instability, oppressive government, and global warming. If you ask me, we should be kicking out dictators, rooting out terror groups, and curbing global warming, like, NOW. Turns out when your home country is a nice place, there's more incentive to stay there. As far as someplace more relatively well-off, like India, you already know the issue as well as I do. They come here to get jobs because bosses know they can pay an amount that's a lot to them but less than you would accept for the same job. Almost like the greedy asshole is the problem in this situation and not the person working the job. I mean, seriously, when corporations do the same shit to one another, they call it "undercutting", and undercutting is "just good business" - but it's the same principle. Lower prices so people buy from you instead of your competitor, forcing them to either lose money or get squeezed out of the market altogether.
>I assumed that one day, people like him would change seeing world events, I hate to break it to you, but people aren't as blind as you think they are. At least, I'm not. I can't speak for others, maybe he's literally someone who sits around spinning his propeller hat and watching David Pakman all day, but from somebody who actually knows anything about what they're talking about, I see the shit people complain about. I know about Deerborn, and I think it's awful. Like, I don't know, some people think lefties unironically see that and go "Yeah well if those WHITE DEMONS didn't want to be woken up by the adhan at 3 AM, maybe their FAMILIES shouldn't have used their WHITE PRIVILEGE to OPPRESS the HECKIN MUSLIMS" or some shit. Like, no, there's plenty of ways they could handle it outside of blasting the adhan on fucking loudspeakers. They could install a bell, they could start a radio channel, they could get someone to make a fucking app that vibrates your phone when it's time to pray. Any number of things. The difference is, I see that, and I see a fucked up situation, done by a group of individuals, with no factual, proven, or even strongly suggested connection to any organization that promotes this kind of thing at a mass scale. You see that and (presumably) go "Aha! Those darn muslims! I've been seeing this, saying this, for years now, and nobody believed me, but just wait, just you wait, they're showing their real colors now and it's only a matter of time before white women need to wear burqas!" Like yeah, obviously, when you have muslims somewhere, there's gonna be a portion of them that align with more hardcore views of the religion. That's every religion, including atheism. Is Islam uniquely susceptible to extremism? Yes, undoubtedly. That can all be true, and it can also be true that there's no Islamic conspiracy to exterminate the white man by demographic and cultural displacement. It's all just dressing and excuses to dislike muslims, indians, somalis, or whatever. And no, that's not fine, because now we've gone back to "what makes a race worth disliking on the basis of that race alone?" - because I doubt you literally just dislike the color brown in general and don't think it looks good on people, but with no actual basis for racial inferiority, the whole thought makes no sense. political horseshit over >now I know that it's only safe if you're anonymous or have vetted everybody who will see you saying it and stuff like that Yeah, the internet fuckin sucks now. People will cancel you over anything. I thought a certain side was against it but ever since people lost their jobs over charlie kirk it well and truly is "You WILL support the current thing... Or else." >At the end of the day I'm a retard without the divine spark. I lack the ambition to accomplish much more than playing vidya in peace Nawr, people don't have some quantifiable "potential points" or anything. You have it in you, I think it's just modern society. Shit ain't good right now, especially for young people. Hope you take a look at what I said in the first section, there's free shit waiting for you out there. If online programs are too much, you may be undiagnosed. Might hurt to come to terms with, but there's something called executive dysfunction which is a symptom of many mental disorders. Just something to think about.
>>419280 didnt read but you seriously need to organize your thoughts better because this is too long you said molymeme takes to long to articulate his points , because he uses examples from his life and abstractions, and you are right, but he's also a wise old fart that i listen to while gaming , and you are just a noob
>>419049(OP) telling people you want to kill yourself is always a bad move no matter what. actually i think talking in general is a risky move. in my life im surrounded by complete madness and its all just a shit test. example: some schizo is road raging at me i say nothing and stare straight ahead the schizo pulls aggro of another schizo the schizos are now occupied with eachother and im free
another example i got assigned a bullshit task as punishment i did the top and bottom line of the assignment and had absolutely nothing in the middle, effectively doing 2% of the work it got 'approved' because nobody actually cared about this task
>>419297 >>419300 I am unsure of how I'm going to proceed and don't want to be like my brother who is himself resigned to being a permanent neet roach system abusing maxxer (who isn't getting neetbux anyway) If I just shut the fuck up forever I'll get nowhere
