>>214921My older sister has an autistic daughter so in the quest of getting her diagnosis and a treatment for her she fell into the mental health rabbit hole, so she got kind of sensitive with that kind of mental health stuff. Recently she reached me out to try to help me get an autism and ADHD diagnosis because she noticed many traits on me when I was a kid and I think I legit may have it since I was never a "normal" person. Due to my parents (especially my father) refusal to look into it, my life has been really difficult. I struggled in school and no one could tell why, I didn't got along with other kids (I didn't interacted with them, I would get bullied but I fought them off and they stopped. My tard rage was also very scary) and my grades were abysmally low on subjects I didn't had interest in.
The teachers in the schools I studied noticed I was a "different" kid and told my parents to get me a psychologist but they refused, my dad in especial used to get very pissed because apparently he didn't want to accept that he had a "mad" son, since one of his daughter's son is also autistic (they also reached out to my family last year to try to get me an autism diagnosis to see if it can help solve a certain judicial issue with my father's inheritance that has been going on for more than a decade already mainly because his bitch witch hag of a ex-wife refuses to give in or to die).
After my father died my mom kept neglecting it either due to lack of time or pure ignorance so I just had to live and deal with it. As I got older many of the traits related to autism disappeared, or better, I learned to hide or cope with them. Many people who talk to me (because I never initiate interactions with anyone) won't notice because I am quite eloquent when I talk, but some people like my boss noticed it in less than a minute with talking to me, so I told my sister that "it's over" and that I'm not gonna get the diagnosis especially because nowadays having autism is cool and hip and a lot of people are trying to get a diagnosis so they can get a leverage with the welfare system so I feel like the issue got trivialized.
But the main thing I'd love to solve is the ADHD thing that has been fucking with me since forever and I have no idea how to deal with it.